He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not
Yep, you read the title right! Whew Chile, we have some catching up to do. So my number one rule I had for myself was that before I started to date again, I would make sure that I was okay with Bianca. I needed to be okay with everything that had taken place in my life. Why? Because every decision, every event that had taken place has made me who I am today. I did not want to run from it. I had to embrace everything the good the bad and the ugly. I also needed to be okay with every flaw and insecurity that I have. So, of course, that was going to take time. As the saying goes hurt, people hurt people, and I refuse to go in any relationship completely damaged.
You know how they say love comes when you least expect it? So here I am, minding my own business checking the goals that I have reached off my list and it happens — no need to get alarmed; I am not getting married or anything. I just wanted to share how important it is to work on you. I took the time and picked myself apart in the right way. I learned and fell in love with every aspect of me. There is not anyone that can tell me anything about me. I now know who I am as a woman, and I will not compromise myself in any way again.
It is now that I am at that place in my life to where adding that special someone to my life is not so terrifying. Every relationship does not have to end the same way. Especially when you have the power over what you will and will not accept, love is a beautiful thing, and we, as women, deserve to be loved correctly. Start with yourself, and the rest will follow. You will find yourself being at peace with decisions that would have typically left you in heartbreak.
So am I in love? Hmm, I'll say that I'm in strong like. But I am going to move forward with decisions that best fit me and my purpose; with the promise of not losing me in the whole dating process. So stay tuned! You ladies will be the first to know with updates.